New Phase of Live

Time flies.How true it that.I finished my secondary school in a fleeting moment,like a flashing of a scene in the movie of my live.

The seven month after spm 2008 is a mixture of excitement and dissapointment.I am like going through an emotional rollercoaster and everything that happened ranged from unbelievable to unacceptable.

During the first 3 month,i have to go through the much-feared driving lesson.Borned not adept and slow in reaction,I bump around with my "sifu" fidgeting beside ,yelling instruction,voice booming louder each time i nearlly run into an imminent car.The funny thing is ,the louder he yell,the more oblivious i am to his instruction.You can guess how frustrated he was from the look of his face,which clearly twisted in anger.

Besides the gruelling driving lessons,i enjoyed reading political books( that doesnt mean i am a nerd ) such as Malay Dilemma,chinese Dilemma,Winning strategy of anwar ibrahim,In Faith,Moving Forward,the Audacity of hope , May 13 declassification,..... Being interested in politic doesnt mean you are endearing yourself toward the path of self destruction in the treacherous political wolrd.It is a maturing process,a process by which we came to realise the fundamental problem of our nation,its origin and how to root it out.It give us a sense of belonging to the nation.It shows that we actually care about the general well being of mankind,especially under the dogmatic believe that chinese do not belong to this country.People may remain cynical by saying:" what could you do to save this country? why act like as if you are superheroes?" This sense of apathy and indifference is the reason why all the deep-rooted problem not being solved.

What are the deep-rooted problem? Top the list is the division of rakyat along racial and political line.I wish to delved deeper into this issue by referiing to my experience in the following 4 month.


After i recieved my spm result,which find myself topping malacca,with 13A1 ( please dont misunderstood,i am not bragging,i need to use this for later writing,sorry if it make you uncomfortable ) ,people around me seems more excited and happy than I am,with list of congrates,annoying probe from the press( i am not selfish to share study skil,but they boast it as if it is the panacea to achieve great exam result).I am not being hypocitical,as being alleged(now i understand why some people dont like to be under limelight),but there are really no short cut to success.You need to toil,persevere,which many fail to realise and think it is due to sheer genius. ( mind you,my mensa is only 128/180------FAIL)

As people always says,Malysia government are capable of doing unexpected thing in a logical way.i was declined a place to study law under JPA PILN scholarship,which is like a punch to my face.As usual, people fuss around me again,some showing empathy,some add salt to the bruises by being cynical.Maybe this is how our government trains us to be tough and want us to stand on our own fear.However,furore and clamour by all quaters help me to secure my scholarship at last.I am lucky,but how about others ? there are scores of 12 A1 student being denied their place in which other with only 6A1 secure it.where is the justification? I am not hurdling criticism to government( as being warned by Jpa), I just worry about the brain drain predicament our society is facing.How our bright student perceive the country if they are denied level playing ground since young and beguiled by the lack of transparency and accountabiity.They love their country,but not when their country dont love them.

However,there are "silver lining in every dark cloud". The one month in KMJ is the best part of my lives.KOLEJ MATRIKULASI JOHOR is not as bad as percieved by outsiders.Not only the teacher are dedicated,Different races go along well, respecting each other values and religion.It is in KMJ i discard my racial stereotype.It is here that i discover that Malay are nice and very friendly,humble,caring,and tolerant.People always say:" do unto others what you want others to do unto you". By mutual courteosy and understanding,we are able to bridge the gap of race and religion.There are no so called race as our blood are all red deep inside.It is only the custom and ways of lives that pose the barrier,and the only way to transcend the barrier is to embrace the different among us .With due respect for each other,we are truly one species known as homo sapiens.We can even joke about our different believe and engage in enlightening discussion.The lecturer there are all unbiased and gave equal treatment to all.You see,race relation only turn bitter when politician incite racial hatred to score some brownie point.By refusing to succumb to their agenda,we are able to ge along well.There are no so called striping of racial right by another races.We are living in a globalised world,where the economic pies are getting larger.Instead of at each other throat for the small piece of pie,why not we collaborate to make it bigger,so that each one of us have a bigger share.There are no superior or inferior races.Every race has their own inherent weakness due to historical factors.This is why we need each other assistence to correct the weakness.If malay are economically backward compare to chinese; chinese are society are a mess,disorganised and constantly engage in internak squabble compare to the unity among malay.Religion also does not pose barrier to unity.Ironically, I learned all about Buddhism in KMJ, and as a result transform mr from a atheist to a devoted buddhist. Kudos to KMJ for allowing free propagation of religion for the minority.All the religion teaches us to respect people who are different from us provided that they does not harm us.


TO End on a general note, i wish Malaysia can be truly multicultural in the future.

(I am under the rules and regulations of JPA schoalrship,hence, the political issue i wrote will be more evasive and tend to be mild,but i will write following my conciousness,being unbiased and hold accountable to all.)